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I'm in phase 3 engineering, and am feeling completely overwhelmed by the timetable and amount of assessments coming up, to the point where I expect to fail badly.
It's not that the stuff is too hard, it's more that I feel like there's nowhere near enough time to get the stuff into my head, they even stick exams between lectures, so even cramming is difficult.
I'm nervous about phoning up my training manager to say "help! I can't cope", because I just expect to get an answer that basically equals "tough", or "nobody else seems to be having a problem", things like that.
I don't want to fail, I was glad to join my company, and I had a very good first sea phase with very good reports and lots done, but I can't cope with what the college is throwing at me, along with all the other everyday stuff like sorting out accommodation, buying and setting up all the stuff you need - cooking stuff, printer, bike, whatever.
Because the college's extenuating circumstances policy seems like a roulette wheel, where you have to choose whether to do the exam or gamble that they give you some leeway somehow, and how can you spend all that time getting evidence and filling in forms when you could be studying?
It feels like you have to spend so much time doing so much else apart from the main thing you're there to do, that you are always playing catch-up, I just don't know how everyone else manages, unless a lot of them feel the same way, or maybe some of them have teamed up somehow.
I don't know what to do, I don't want to contact my company whilst I'm unsure or "emotional", and I don't really trust the college staff. On top of that there's the whole money side - a landlord who expects 3 months rent in december, and the rumours about repayment of training money spent on you.
It's all very depressing. I just want a job, I just want to go on a ship and work, and learn the job by doing it, and this college stuff just seems to get in the way, I'm at my wit's end.
It's not that the stuff is too hard, it's more that I feel like there's nowhere near enough time to get the stuff into my head, they even stick exams between lectures, so even cramming is difficult.
I'm nervous about phoning up my training manager to say "help! I can't cope", because I just expect to get an answer that basically equals "tough", or "nobody else seems to be having a problem", things like that.
I don't want to fail, I was glad to join my company, and I had a very good first sea phase with very good reports and lots done, but I can't cope with what the college is throwing at me, along with all the other everyday stuff like sorting out accommodation, buying and setting up all the stuff you need - cooking stuff, printer, bike, whatever.
Because the college's extenuating circumstances policy seems like a roulette wheel, where you have to choose whether to do the exam or gamble that they give you some leeway somehow, and how can you spend all that time getting evidence and filling in forms when you could be studying?
It feels like you have to spend so much time doing so much else apart from the main thing you're there to do, that you are always playing catch-up, I just don't know how everyone else manages, unless a lot of them feel the same way, or maybe some of them have teamed up somehow.
I don't know what to do, I don't want to contact my company whilst I'm unsure or "emotional", and I don't really trust the college staff. On top of that there's the whole money side - a landlord who expects 3 months rent in december, and the rumours about repayment of training money spent on you.
It's all very depressing. I just want a job, I just want to go on a ship and work, and learn the job by doing it, and this college stuff just seems to get in the way, I'm at my wit's end.
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